At the time, it felt like I’d finally cracked it.
Weight was coming off easily. I had more “energy” than I’d had in years. To anyone watching, it looked like momentum.
This was around 12 or 13 years ago – well before I worked in health or became plant-based – I made a choice that, at the time, felt completely reasonable.
I was working in the finance industry. I was busy, driven, and surrounded by a culture that rewarded output. I wasn’t significantly overweight, but I was carrying more weight than I wanted to. And like many women, I had absorbed the belief that if there was a faster way to feel better, more in control, more energised, it was worth exploring.
A friend talked about a prescription weight-loss solution she’d started using. She wasn’t hungry. The weight was coming off easily. She had energy. She could work long hours. She felt on top of everything.
It sounded life-changing.
So I followed her lead.
And on the surface, it worked.
The weight dropped quickly. People commented. I seemed energised. I was productive at work. Things that had once felt hard suddenly felt easy. Hunger barely registered. Cravings faded into the background.
From the outside, it looked like success.
That’s the part that matters – because this wasn’t a reckless decision made in chaos. It was a socially sanctioned shortcut that delivered exactly what our culture rewards: visible results and increased output.
But what I couldn’t see at the time – and what I can see very clearly now – was that nothing underneath had actually changed.
The problem with short-term health fixes
What I mistook for energy back then wasn’t real energy.
It was stimulation.
The kind that lets you override signals rather than respond to them. The kind that feels productive, alert, and “on”, but depends entirely on something external to keep going.
If you stripped away the medication – and the coffee I was absolutely still drinking at the same time – there was nothing there to sustain the pace.
The medication was powerfully stimulating. Appetite was suppressed, cravings were quieter, exhaustion was masked, and alertness was artificially elevated. I could skip meals, skip rest, and still function – not because my body was coping, but because the signals that normally tell you to slow down were being overridden.
I hadn’t built anything that made me more capable or that I could sustain long-term.
I told myself I was using it as a jumpstart. I even said the right things out loud – that I’d use the time to build better habits, that I’d be careful, that I’d do this properly.
But the truth is simpler and more uncomfortable: when something is working this easily, there’s very little incentive to do the work underneath it.
You can get away with a lot when appetite is suppressed, and stimulation is doing the heavy lifting. You can eat poorly, eat inconsistently, skip rest, and still function. You can feel like you’re “on top of things” while bypassing the foundations that actually support health.
It wasn’t that I didn’t know better. I did.
What changed was that there was no incentive to actually apply it, because the short-term results were being delivered without the work.
It taught me how to rely on something external – and how quickly that reliance can start to feel normal.
When feedback comes from the outside, not the inside
One of the most telling parts of that time wasn’t how I felt – it was how I behaved.
I thought I was fine. More than fine. I felt productive. Driven. Capable.
But my partner saw something different.
He noticed I was impatient. Snappy. Irritable. Less calm. He recognised the pattern before I did – not because he was judging me, but because he’d seen how people change when they’re running on stimulants instead of rest.
At the time, that feedback was hard to hear. When the external rewards are strong – weight loss, praise, productivity – it becomes very difficult to question the strategy delivering them.
That’s one of the hidden costs of short-term wins: they drown out quieter signals.
The harm that doesn’t announce itself
What I also couldn’t see at the time was that this wasn’t neutral.
While things looked “fine” on the outside, I was actively doing harm. I wasn’t nourishing my body properly. I wasn’t sleeping well. I was running on stimulation instead of recovery.
I already had high blood pressure at the time, and that kind of constant stimulation doesn’t exist in a vacuum. Repeated spikes in blood pressure place strain on the body and the brain. They’re not something you feel happening in the moment, but they matter. They shape long-term health in ways that don’t show up on a scale or in your productivity stats.
That’s the part that’s easy to miss when something is “working.”
You don’t just fail to build skills – you quietly accumulate damage.
What only becomes clear in hindsight
There wasn’t a single dramatic moment where everything fell apart. No obvious warning sign that forced a reckoning.
The cost was only visible later, when I had more context – and more education – to understand what had been happening.
What stands out now isn’t just the physical side of it. It’s the realisation that nothing about that approach was building resilience, capability, or trust in myself.
The only way to maintain those results would have been to stay on the very thing producing them.
And that’s the distinction I didn’t pay attention to then, but I do now.
Some strategies deliver outcomes quickly, but leave you no stronger, no more capable, and no more supported than you were before. When they stop, everything reverts – sometimes with interest.
At the time, I was only asking one question: Is this working?
I wasn’t asking the question that matters more over the long run: What is this building – or eroding – over time?
Why this still matters
I’m sharing this because I see the same pattern play out again and again – in different forms, with different tools, under different names.
Short-term solutions are seductive precisely because they do deliver something. They reduce discomfort. They create momentum. They make life feel easier … for a while.
But ease in the short term can come at a cost that isn’t immediately visible.
Those costs rarely announce themselves while a strategy is “working.” They show up later, when you zoom out – not just as missing skills or resilience, but as real wear and tear on the body and brain. The effects of poor nourishment, chronic stimulation, inadequate rest, and repeated physiological stress don’t always feel dramatic in the moment. But they add up.
It’s also worth saying this explicitly: I’m not dismissive of weight-loss medications. For some people – particularly those with significant weight to lose – they can be genuinely helpful, and in some cases life-changing.
What matters is how they’re used. Whether they’re paired with adequate nourishment, strength-preserving movement, proper rest, and support that helps build changes that hold once the medication is removed.
One of the risks, especially when appetite is suppressed, is the loss of muscle alongside weight. Without enough protein, resistance to stress, and intentional movement, it’s easy to lose not just fat, but strength and metabolic resilience too.
This isn’t about judging any particular choice.
It’s about the lens we use to evaluate them.
And while this story involves medication, the pattern isn’t unique to it. Any approach that delivers fast relief while bypassing nourishment, rest, or resilience can carry similar long-term costs – even when it looks successful on the surface.
When we only measure success by immediate outcomes, we miss an important question:
Is this supporting my long-term health?
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